Im back with writing!
Probably you will be wondering with my current situation right now as i was in ‘not available’ blog status. But im back! Because i was thinking, i should write just so mr Lemon could spend 3-4 minutes of his day reading my blog. At least i want him to know things going on around me and yes! I need his attention. Wait. HIS attention. Not yours. Not everyone. Okay. That is so… Blunt. 

Dear mr Lemon,

I understand how busy you are. Like i said, i trust tou. And sometimes i just want your presence here. You probably dont reply my text because you are so focus with your work at the hospital but its okay. I understand. Its enough for me to know that you read my blog eveyday, you listen to my endless ramblings and you know my situation here. Thats all. I hope you dont miss anything. I want to keep update on you but, nahh. I know things will come on the right time if you know what i mean. Take care πŸ™‚ 

So here we are.

I just came back from Toraja with my makassar family. It was FUN! Although theres certain part im not happy with but overall, IM GOING TO MISS MY MAKASSAR FAMILY. Ive learnt that, God is so wise. I may missed a lot of things especially bad things currenly happening around me and involve ME, but somehow, God made me choose to spend my holiday with them and He open my eyes for everything I may not get clear view with. And im so thankful with that. Secondly i learnt, Kebenaran tidak akan dapat disembunyikan jika hati tidak tenang. Dan ketahuilah, Tuhan tidak akan menganiaya hambanya terutama apabila difitnah. But in the end, i realised that human make mistakes πŸ™‚ so i forgive them dunya and akhirah. Life has ups and downs. The only way you can become happy and find peace is when you choose to forgive and forget πŸ™‚

Aku bersyukur dengan kehadiran kamu.

Walaupun kamu bukan seperti cowok atau pasangan lain yang mungkin setiap hari balas text, telfon, kencan, tapi aku ga tau kenapa hati ku tenang. Tidak pernah merasakan gundah atau galau seperti orang lain. Meraka sering bertanya ‘kenapa bisa kamu terima dia?’ ‘Kenapa bisa kamu tunggu walaupun hanya dibalas sekali dalam seminggu’ ‘gimana kalau dia selingkuh speerti mantan mu lain?’

Aku hanya bisa jawab

‘Aku ga tau. Setiap hari hanya doa aku titip ke Tuhan buat dia dan keluarganya’

Jujur, tidak pernah sekali dalam hati ku tidak percaya sama dia. Dan menurutku itu adalah perasaan terbaik dari Tuhan dan Tuhan memberikan yang terbaik buat diri ku. Amin.
+ Eleena Ahmad


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