i dont know who else is with me
i hate when guys trying to be closed with me
or i hate when they start having any intention on getting more than just friends
its like i have this tingling when it happens. I hate when there are guys at the field when i jog, i feel like they are staring at me.
Call me paranoid
but thats what i feel.
I dont know who else could understand me when i try to get away from them. Its like part of ‘jaga diri’ but they want me to be friendlier.
idk how to explain this.
idk who else i could talk to.
I may look normal
But im not.
Feels like theres some part of me actually still paranoid over guys. After some experiences.
When i try to be loyal or stick to one, they will start to question ‘are you sure about that?’
yes im sure.
i think so.
im so messed up.
i told diana about this. I miss everyone. I miss everyone i could talk to. I dont have anyone here. Neither my bf who barely text me and sometime would leave our conversation.
I miss my friends.